The illusion of control

My ego (nafs in Sufi terminology) really loves to think it has full control. A real sense of entitlement; the original sin of humanity, pride.

Right now I'm dealing with problems with my house. A lot of dangers in the compound I live in. Mostly has to do with electricity, pretty dangerous stuff. It's not a matter of not liking the furniture, or that my toilet seats are all falling off. There are lights every few meters out in the compound environment which are jerry-rigged and dangerous. It's not safe to halfass fix electrical items!

I think I am in control, making my arguments to my employer, who is ultimately the one who can vouchsafe a different housing arrangement for me. But really, it's God who has the last say, who is in control. I have to remember that. The Qu'ran tells us that all good things and bad things in our lives come from God; we are given these blessings, and hardships, to test our Faith. ...and the ultimate paradise is in the afterlife. Worldly enjoyments are transient and will fade, but with God is our ultimate paradise. I have to keep sight of this. It's so easy to want the material luxuries.